I'm a patient.

I used to counsel patient, discharge, dispense, and everything. 

But now, i'm the starring. 

Guess how it feels? 

i feel numb, emotion-less, smile-less, without any facial expression, quiet, dumb, deaf, blind.

I seriously can't believe its happening to me.

I'll be fine, I promised. I hate making everyone around me worrying about me. 

I'll be fine. 

a random feeling.

a guy friend of mine (not to say my friend, coz i'm not closed with, fyi). he started a conversation with me, saying that he's depressed or something, over an argument with his girl. and today's topic is: 

The girl is unhappy as the guy did not buy anything for her as a present.

two things to mention right here is:

1. the guy said he doesn't want to waste any money on useless stuffs as he had just bought a house and he needs the money for renovation.

2. he told me the girl insists him to get her an expensive watch

OK. topic started.

do you think females really want/care what present you gave them? Yes la definitely they hope to receive expensive gifts. but seriously, if you can't afford it, do you think we'll be mad at you if you design a card or at least get us a cake? seriously, not at all! Man, it shows your sincerity that at least you put some effort on getting her something!! maybe a cake personally made by you? or just a meal? (seriously, i'll die for that!) Even though females often complained how jealous they are towards their friend who accept expensive gifts from their bfs but if you cant afford, and you're good at something else, i mean like, why not? if the girl still complains when you serve her a meal, then just leave her to death, she's not worth it. well you know what he answered when i said, just get her a card, or a meal etc? he said, "even preparing a meal you will need ingredients!" do you think he's stingy? i personally think he is. Hello!!?!?!? how much a cake will cost you? or those ingredients? crap la! if you dont have a heart, don't even bother! he kept saying she doesn't want any cakes or cheap stuffs, but GUYS, how you know she doesn't want any? are you going to ask, "how about i'll make you a cake to substitute your present for this year?" MAN, ARE YOU SERIOUS?! do i still need to tell you to, make it as a surprise and surprises the girl you love, DEY!! and finally i said, fine, just spend the memorable day with her and make her feel comfortable and promise her to get her something, when you are financially secured. you know what he replied? he said, "if im not financially secured, i won't be able to buy a RM400k house!" 

tell me, is this grandiose? egoism? boastful?

seriously, i cannot accept it lor. 

see, i told you he's not a close friend of mine. 

and i ended up arguing with him over this matter. bahahaha! :D

Therapeutic Drug Monitoring (TDM)

I think i have the word TDM engraved on my forehead, whenever i walked pass any doctors, they will say to the others, "oh yeah, my patient needs a TDM. need to call them up for appointment"

And I smiled, "I'm here! will go to your ward right after this"

-.-" 

Awesome seafood in Subang

My family and I proceed with our holidays to Kuala Lumpur despite the stupid postpone of my convocation as tickets had been bought earlier. I'm seriously pissed over this matter. But of course, since its impossible to change our flights to next year as the charges were absurd, we went to Kuala Lumpur as planned. Taking this as a family trip to Kuala Lumpur. 

I was there earlier than my family members, taking some sweet time with my baby. We went to enjoy our date before my family joins in. Movies, food, shopping malls, as always. :)

camwhoring in the car, as always. :) Oh gosh, i miss those time spent with you! :(

Tony Roma's. as always. too bad the waitress who used to serve us was not around, everything is kinda in a mess without her around. >.< 

this is the playful one, who can ignore (Ignore as in TOTALLY IGNORE) everything (including me), when he has that apple in his hands. >:\

beautiful decor in The Curve 

beautiful, ain't it? Christmas is awesome!

A picture of me and you. love this loads. :D

and i effing love my new top! *proud*

Its such a shame MNG doesn't have any sale when i'm around there. :( the sale just started say, 2 weeks ago, which is also 1-2 weeks right after i return to my hometown. :( cruel. was thinking to get some working pants for myself. *sniffles* there it goes. 

Oh snap. realizing my post title, i guess i'm a lil off-tracked. Let me get back to it. my bro's guru (i've no idea in which aspect, engineering, i guess), he brought us to this expensive dining place located near the terminal in Subang. 

Its famous with the seafood, apparently *even better than Sandakan's*! that's an eye-opening, huh? but definitely, you need to pay the price as well! you really need to get your booking's done before you come here as it is always packed with tourists, and people who wants to have their nights off, savouring into good food like this!

If i have known this earlier, i should have dressed up myself properly instead of just slipping myself into my Mango shorts and Donna Karan plain top. :\

notice the roof? its open-able! it was opened up once the rain had stopped, making the environment more breathable. 

As its a longgg way from Old Klang, *the journey along the Federal Highway makes me doze off*, Kenny and I quickly went to the restroom for some stress reliever. ;) 

look what's interesting in here,

Ahem! yes! this is the male restroom! you have your own toilet, of course, for your biggy business, otherwise, you can just get your small business done here! you can aim towards the fish as you wish! :D

There's too a mini-shark in the aquarium! what a beautiful aquarium, but pity the fish who need to face male's penis everyday!

Oyster for appetizer

fresh oysters! it only costs us RM6.50 each. :)

remember to get it dripped with lemon.

fresh oysters for those who can stand it! :DD

it was then continued with this

Mexican geoduck! Sashimi neh!

Here are the 2-3kg of geoduck which billed RM300++. 

here comes the Mantis Shrimps! :D yummy!

i was supposed to be enjoying this Shrimps, but then i felt unwell out of a sudden. I was a bit feverish, hot/cold, numbness on my limbs, palpitation, shortness of breath, nauseous. Everything was so so so wrong towards me :( are my cholesterol building up and get one of my blood vessels blocked? you can't imagine how terrified i am by that time!

oh no. i'm truly sorry as i don't enjoy you as much as i should!

it is then followed by this, Spider Crab.

i can't manage to take the picture before its gone, as my hands are busy with the mantis shrimps. This spider crab was served in two types of servings with one: served with butter milk (where we were also served mantous to munch with the delicate sauce), and i forget what's the other one. -.-"

awesome? Yes, its the best food i ever tasted. And it costed us near RM2,000 for 11 pax. 

by the way, speaking of my palpitation, i was still worried about those signs i experienced. where out of a sudden, when we're helping ourselves with the spider crab, my dad suddenly spoke out, "just now i feel a tingling sensation, numbness, shortness of breath..." 

i quickly responded, and agreed! 

by then, only i realize everyone is feeling the same way, and then, we come to a conclusion that, its the fresh oyster who made us feeling that way! the zinc in it is really superb, ain't it? to be able to make everyone of us like that! what an aphrodisiac. :x it really is. keke. 

The next day we went to Genting for a night stay. I don't remember how long dad/mom have not been there, hence, the plan. Genting is so full of people! and i love the decor for this year! :) its recycling year!

  

how thoughtful, isn't it? :D its beautiful! can't believe Spritzer bottles can be made into christmas trees! 

not forgetting santa and Rudolph too! :D

out of everything, i like this most! 

made out of all those bottle covers! :D

hehe, an incomplete family portrait >.<

and the night ended like this,

with all of us celebrating dad and mom's 34th anniversary in Baskin Robbins, Genting Highlands.

Yummy vanilla ice cream cake by Baskin Robbins! :D i want one for my birthday too!!!

i can tell how happy they were in this whole trip. :) with us accompanying them. that's what they need, not to shower them with expensive things, but to take time and go places with them, letting them know that, they are not forgotten. 

not forget to mention how much fun we went to shopping together with mom in Times Square when we found the RM10 stores! haha. 

you know where is the place for everyone to shop? there's one apparel shop who manage to get all of us buy something (what i mean is really ALL of us, including my parents, my bro and sis-in-law, and kenny, and me!)

i felt so excited seeing that! it does not happen that frequently!  :D

its:

Brands Outlet in Sunway Pyramid! :D at least 2 items for each of us! Brands Outlet is really earning our money! :D

when will be my next holiday? it will be my convo date, that one for real,  i hope. No shopping will be done by then, as i'll be really busy and i did not take too many days off. the next real Holiday will be on March. :) can't wait to see you again, darling! miss you loads.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everybody!

this will be the last post of the year 2010! :)

hope everything will keep getting better! :D yay. 

and thank you dear for this :)

:))

Newcomers in the blogsphere!

My friend had just opened up a new blog selling dresses and stuffs. :) please support ya!

http://thepresent4.blogspot.com/

That's working life. :\

my day was totally ruined when i went to get the signature of the staff nurse for my ward inspection report. i didn't know what's the big deal of this ward inspection because previously i had granted a C grade to my previous ward inspection. and so was this one. The staff nurse who guide me along this ward inspection was not around, and so i approached another staff nurse. she was like super bewildered when she saw the stupid score. she was like, what? C grade? i can't sign this! i have to talk to sister.

:\

f-ed up, i know. 

they were in the room for like, 10 minutes? its getting pretty late and i still have to go back to my in-patient ward supply department. when they are out, they came with a conclusion saying that they disagree with what i had done/written in my report. *gasp*

and they start judging me, asking me tonnes of questions.

Hello? They asked, "how "NOT BERSIH"(unclean) is our bin?trays?"

i feel like punching her on her face. these judges are very subjective! aint they? i was asked to decide what mark to give and now you're questioning about the marks i gave? C'mon!?

they can distort every single facts, you know?! they were given zero mark for the recording of dangerous drug 'cos they did not key in 2 items after they used it. Their reply really make me snorted with laughter. =x they said i was there when they are administrating to the patient and they WILL return after that. just because i was checking in between the time and, err, i was wrong? :\ they misplaced something who looked almost the same from the outlook (e.g. Dextrose into Water for Injection site), and they could blamed THE PACKAGING for looking alike? LOL!

yup. end up its all my fault, they deserve this 100%, or more. :)

i had enough already. =p 

pissed.

you know what? i'm super pissed over the matter of my convocation has been postponed to February. Seriously? dang it. and its not officially announced yet! i just get to know via Facebook. what kind of admin is this? aren't they supposed to inform us say, once they got this piece of effing news? I still remember them telling me that they confirmed with the December 4th date during last month when i made a return to my college. asked them for a thousandth time, and they still said so! just 1 month after that, they made another changes. :\ i had booked all my family's ticket to KL FOR CHRIST's SAKE! -.-" 

i dont care, i need them to compensate my air tickets, its their fault, isnt it? why should they keep on postponing? they might as well as have it delayed till my batch of MBBS students graduate! DRAHhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 

holy crap. 

nevermind then, looking forward to this unplanned holiday. :\ coz it costs me a bomb to make flight ticket to February. Furthermore, its NOT OFFICIAL YET without HITAM PUTIHHh! -.-"

for the first time, i hate my school. 

my new attachment: Store

people somehow are left aghast when they found out that pharmacists need to take care of the store as well :\. guess they might be thinking that we're the one who do all the carrying and stuffs. 

In fact, that's included in our workload.

Heheh. but not that frequent, anyway. Furthermore, I don't think they really ask FEMALES to do such thing. Guess its better to let the Males to handle them. :)

anyway, it is my first week and life's bored. =X however, i like the "work", as in in-charge of purchasing and stuffs. It's like shopping without using your own money, cool huh? my preceptor had been pretty busy for the past few days and he's not really free to entertain me, thus the boredom. Other than that, the computer there sucks, big time. the filter screen is blurry wtf. the PC is effing slow for Christ's sake. the microsoft word version is OLD and useless (or i should say, in a nicer way, less useful than the one i have). The keyboard is unfavorable. Above all, i hate the phone calls most. they are very much disastrous. 1 phone call coming in, 3 phones will be ringing, in different type of ring tones. The annoying fact is, no one is willing to pick up the phone. neither do i. *but hey,  i have my own reason, kay. I don't know the people there, yet, i don't know how to divert calls to other units in store!* so i got my point. and the other staffs are ridiculous for letting the phone ringing non-stop. -.-" 

Anyway, the best thing being in store is that, i have my own working place. :D my own working table, and chair! bahaha! and i got free gifts. =x just the 4th day, i had gotten myself 3 free pens, and 1 free notepad. 

just got one from Sanofi Aventis. hehe! 

KISS : Keeping It Safe and Simple.

gahaha. Not forgetting to say, the toilet in store is so goddam-clean! you don't have to frown even if you have an upset stomach. =D
and the best part..

Hello Kitty spotted. this view is from my cubic. :P

awesome right? so full of Hello Kittys! I was never a Hello Kitty fans, but when i look at this, so sweet! i can't help but gaze in awe. >.
i want a hello Kitty working table too!!! >.
In case you dont know, even her keyboard, mouse, calculator, baskets, pencil box, cellotape are all hello kittys!
*p/s: she drives a kenari with Hello Kitty shades, car seats etcccc....* i think she owns that car, when i saw the "hello kitty car". bahaha!


lovely!
yeappiey! tomorrow is finally Friday! hehehe. :DD

My First Time *shy*

Gosh. What were you thinking when you see my post title? *laughs*

Its been, kind of a hectic week for me, I guess. Just like what I had said earlier, my first time, aww.

My first time On-call >.

I had been working in HDOK for the past, err, say 2 months +? since August. and yes, my IMU colleagues they all had their on calls briefing already way before I enter. So i was kinda, burning the midnight oil, seek for En. Anuar's on-call briefing last Friday. (Trust me, I can't sleep since then! Saturday, Sunday.. and Monday!) I kept on dreaming that my phone is brringging!! 

The on-call here, is kinda different from others (after I had chatted with a few of my batchmates). err, I will say, I prefer theirs instead. :\ 

When they are on-call, they have to return to hospital and stay in the pharmacy from 10pm till the next day 8am, and you get your off day after 8am. Its a totally different case to me. *sniffles* i get my err, "off" (or do you even call it an off?) in the afternoon, and you have to return for locum at 6pm till 10pm. after 10pm, you're allowed to got back to your cosy home (sounds great?) but you're on-calling. As in, any problem, they will ring you up first (I guess everyone knows what on-call is meant). Argh. you're on-called until the next day 8am. and you need to get your ass back to work at 8am. :\ Trust me, its not good. argh! you can't sleep at all even there's no call! you'll be having nightmares. Ouch! 

Yes its my first time. aw. I took a nap during my off in the afternoon. Got up, had my dinner, and headed to HDOK. While I'm at the traffic light, preparing to make a turn, my phone started to ring. :\ Aw. I was asked to supply filgrastrim. >.

err. to make things worst, I have not attached to satellite. bahaha! =x

Luckily i get help from Kak Ani and Kak Yati who's the PA for my locum *hearts* love them both. hee! they kindly guide me what to do in the OPD where i ran up to supply. =P Thanks to my handphone, or else, I don't think i'll be able to find the switch for the lamp (its seriously dark already! and it took me some time keke paiseh paiseh).
my seniors who just done with their ward discharge, came around OPD and told me to get ready as there are alot of admission today :( 

After the locum, I got home, of course, after passing the keys to the operator. grahhhh~!

i was keeping myself awake with hongkies series, hehe. and a call interrupted my drama *frowns* 

"Hello, we need Riamet right now....yada yada yada...."

*POUTS*

1st thing to do: call your PA to get her to supply them (then you wouldn't have to go back!*sweet*)

1st thing: Failed. I can't even get through my PA's phone.

*Dumbfounded*

2nd thing: call Mr. Anuar and seek for help!! >.<~ luckily he's not asleep! hehe. its around 11.45pm already. =) and! ask where's the location of Riamet in satellite. *proud*

3rd thing: call Medical ward to see if any of their patients are taking them.. maybe we can borrow from them?

3rd thing: Failed. No one is taking that. argh.

4th thing: pack my wallet and car keys, and headed to hospital.

5th thing: get the keys from operator

and I hurried to satellite. Supplied, and recorded. Tada!

Returned home at: 0010hour. 

another call at 0115hour. And i went to bed *yawns*

I'm grateful there's no other calls after that. hehe! 

Aw. i need to pack up tonight, as i'm leaving to KL tomorrow! yippieyy!! =))

Finally get to see you again, beebot! :D

my own

yup! i got my own chop finally! it had been OOS for the past few weeks, till today! i finally get it done. isnt it cute huh? i never seen such cute chop for the past 20 years =P hehehhe..

its seriously handy!!

ahha! sorry to be that sampat, but im really excited =P

yippiey! its holiday tomorrow, ahAHAha! :DD