pissed.

you know what? i'm super pissed over the matter of my convocation has been postponed to February. Seriously? dang it. and its not officially announced yet! i just get to know via Facebook. what kind of admin is this? aren't they supposed to inform us say, once they got this piece of effing news? I still remember them telling me that they confirmed with the December 4th date during last month when i made a return to my college. asked them for a thousandth time, and they still said so! just 1 month after that, they made another changes. :\ i had booked all my family's ticket to KL FOR CHRIST's SAKE! -.-" 

i dont care, i need them to compensate my air tickets, its their fault, isnt it? why should they keep on postponing? they might as well as have it delayed till my batch of MBBS students graduate! DRAHhhhhhhhhhhhhh! 

holy crap. 

nevermind then, looking forward to this unplanned holiday. :\ coz it costs me a bomb to make flight ticket to February. Furthermore, its NOT OFFICIAL YET without HITAM PUTIHHh! -.-"

for the first time, i hate my school. 

my 4th week of attachment!

yup! my 4th week of attachment will be the happiest attachment so far! it is relaxing, and what's good, it satisfied my curiosity! hehe. what's that? 

i was attached for O&G (Obstetric and Gynaecology) for this week! =)

Bad thing is that i got a really complicated case as my first case, and I can't get to go on the second day as i have to prepare my PCIs where other of my groupmates went and witness a delivery. however, nothing to worry about as I had been granted with a lovely and considerate groupmates and they are very willing to wait till i get to see the whole delivery process myself. 

i get to witness the whole labour thing on Wednesday! :) 

Jane and I were waiting (as we're the two missing out on Tuesday) from 11am after clerking our case. C'mon c'mon, we're pursuading the babies to come out for us. Too bad, i guess we're not influential enough, they refuse to come into the world when we're around. after waited for like 1 hour and 30 minutes, we headed to grab our lunch at Sushi King, and some err, shoppings =x supposed to be a last minute shopping, i have to get my hair spray as i don't want to waste my money going to the saloon. We only get back to the delivery room at 3pm. =( guess what? the babies wanted to join us for Sushi King and all of them had already came out and had their first meal! argh. T___T 

I suddenly thought of a brilliant idea, hehe, which is checking their BHTs (Bed head tickets). check their dilation and the expected time, if its too late, i guess it does not worth the wait and we probably could make a return next day. I asked the doctor (omg, they are really helpful in aiding and guiding us: the lost sheep!) yupe, she told me this patient had a dilation of 7cm at 12noon, around 4pm they will do a check on the contractions. 

yippie! i shouted to myself. 

but err, honestly when i first saw, i was frightened and everything as i never thought that it can be that big! the hole, I say. 

after some wait, we see some nurses hurried into that particular labour room. I followed as well, trying to figure out what happen. OMG i see the head! i mean, from the hole! :D all my groupmates joined me and we're watching outside the labour room (with the sliding door opened lol). 

i can't exactly describe the whole magnificent event, but what i can say is that, i had watched the complete episode from the mother pushing hard, to the baby was born, to the baby's first meal, to the baby's weighing and clearing of BO, and to the removing of umbilical cord and placenta, and finally comes to the stitching. 

you'll feel the surge of joy immediately when you see the baby! no wonder Mothers willing to go through all these pain just to give birth to a baby, it really worth the pain. =)

not forget to mention, the mother had 3 abortions (due to complications) before and this is the first kid of hers. we are very proud of her and happy at the same time where she delivered a healthy, cute baby boy!

fyi, its 4.0kg! it is huge!!!

really, i felt so proud of women of all the world when i saw how much pain they had gone through during labour. and i think that males should always get to see how female go through this! 

our pain threshold are really high (KaeShih, 2010)

mom, love you to bits! <3 

p/s: will post up pics on my annual dinner, yeah? toodles.

Research project

I'm so proud of you ~! (Moja, 2010)

Moja, the joker of the class, was telling the above statement to anyone who had done everything regarding the research project including the hard-cover binding (he's really cute! haha. we know in real he's mimicking some lecturers of ours). Honestly, we are so happy when we finally got everything done despite the fact that we splurged like RM100 and more for printing and binding (as you know we have to prepare 4 sets with hard cover binding) not forgetting to mention i gotta had them laser printed with colors (to express the beauty of my results hehe). Anyone would like to have a look of my thesis? i am real proud of myself! hahaha. 

today is the day we had all  been waiting for :) the release of the thesis results. not even one of our supervisors had the results leaked (they can keep secrets really well!). we never thought that the results will be released today (last day before our Chinese New Year holidays). they once promised us that results will be coming out this week, but then they told us again saying that they would like us to enjoy our holidays before giving out the results -.-" obviously they are fooling us! 

guess what? my 128-pages of research paper got an A. yippie! :)

does my research paper look professional to you? LOL

u don't have to answer, 'cos i think it looks good! yahoo. =)

reappearance

holiday's over! T_T how sad. but no doubt, i was having loadsa fun during this hols! :D
anyway, right now im busy with my presentation for my thesis and stuffs :( thats pathetic, huh? yeah i know. T_T gotta get them done and over argh! stop haunting me!
wednesday will be the presentation date where as viva will be held on, erm, next tuesday? no idea, its next week anyway.

now i'm stuck in my introduction wtf -.-

i have so many things to say! but not now -.-"
gotta get that effing thing done, first. ;) toodles!

guess what? exam results are out and zomG. for the first time i get better results than i expect to LOL. thank God. thank TuHAN!!!

freed!

yay! exam is over! time to relax! hehe.

today is the last day, where we have OSCE in the morning >.<

honestly, i cannot think of anything to complain in grand reflection, hehe, probably i was too excited by then as we had gone through all the final papers! what a relief! :) well, i think i gotta give myself a break while waiting for the results to come out (i hope my results will be a fine one T_T)

now im looking forward to spend the weekend with dear, shopping, movies, eating~ and oh, *blush* he remembers the date for our 1st anniversary. :) he was sulking when i mentioned earlier that i want to stay at home getting my thesis done this weekend. alright alright, teehee, was just teasing him anyway. :) so? i'll get back here and see what we will be doing this weekend :)

oh i love Christmas! love all the decor and stuffs. too bad i have no camera to take those pictures down, was thinking to get one... of course i wasn't thinking of getting one expensive one or, you know? im not an expert in all these (even though my grandfather is the first cameraman in Sandakan hehehe and my dad got his oldies donated to Sabah Museum), but new cameras nowadays, we don't really use them :) i mean me, im too lazy to figure out how do they work (i think even my daddy is too lazy to figure out how hehehehe). all i care about is, take a nice pic of me and for me to keep :) just a usual one will be sufficient to me, compact, of course!

but i really wanted to get one :( especially the fact that im going to pay a visit to dear's hometown when i return after this holiday :D my first time to alor setar, is there only grains and wheats around? kakakaka. most probably paying a visit to penang and Hatyai too. :) my first time also to Hatyai .. heheh, cant wait!

worst thing now is i have to get my thesis done. get all the discussion and results are not that hard, i assume. but the hardest part is to follow the freaking format they set. e.g. 5 cm from the upper margin yada yada yada... if there's a template readied, how good is that? furthermore, i still have to arrange all those pictures and figures and tables and blablabla. :( not forgetting that idiotic table of content. argh!

i hope i can get it done :( stop procrastinating Phyllis Cheong!

but i can't stop myself from watching drama. eee.

drama that im watching now: 有营煮妇。 yeah, i know this drama is like ages ago, but i didn't spend a single minute watching drama this semester! now u can see howwww hectic i am! (not forgetting all the cafes and restaurants and fish to be fed in my virtual aquarium in facebook haha)

toodles. gotta start off with my thesis already. wish me luck! :)

Happy!

i got my protein wrong again thanx to rcsb keep on tricking me into getting a wrong protein. as a result, i got all my docked results with the ligand and protein far away from each other wtf. and i have to redo everything again, this happened on 01.12.2009 4pm i think.

today, 03.12.2009, i am freaking happy because:

1. i had got all my dockings done, and tabulated of the results is done, left is the analysis part :) fast? not fast at all, imagine from 01.12.2009 4pm ---> 03.12.2009 3pm my laptop keep running for autogrid and autodock. yess, including my sleeping time where i have to wake up and check if the docking is done and to proceed with another ligand. not forget to mention i have exams on 02.12.2009.

2. i guess i had the best news ever after in these 2 weeks as i was given surprises of wrong ligand, wrong protein, wrong file, wrong system, yada yada yada. i got the best news from kaeshih. :D i was shutting myself off from msn/ebuddy in linux, and everything just not to slow my docking down. when i turned on my ebuddy, kaeshih is the 1st one with all the offline msgs. :D *aren't you glad to be the first one kekeke* jc ure too late. =x

our thesis submission is postponed! thank God, for the past hours i was thinking to myself why i was treated that way, have to redo and redo and redo during the busiest moment in my life. another hour, i couldn't thank God enough for that good news!

3. i finally got all my dockings done! yahoo! and i had checked, ligands are in the protein! :) but then i faced another problem, i cant seem to get my .pdb file right in notepad. everything gets jumbled up and its hard for me to analyse.

4. i finally got my .pdb file right in notepad! ain't i brilliant? :)

5. due to the postpone, i guess im granting myself a break this saturday :) movie and shopping time! owh, how much i miss doing that with darling :)

5 things are sufficient to make my day/night. :)

PRAISE TO THE LORD!

*counting down the days to Christmas, i love Christmas! too bad i cant be around you, honey :(*

Gratitude

many things happened, and, basically is a no-good thing, definitely.

you know what? the enzyme i was working on supposedly to be ACE, and do you have any idea that ACE has 2 different isoenzymes? where isoenzyme means different amino acid structure of course! and? i was studying of ACE on RAS and this should be ACE1~

guess what?

i had docked all ACE2.

meaning i had taken the wrong enzyme from the start and this ACE2 differs from ACE1 cuz they have a missing pocket. and they usually take it for the screening of SARS medication.

ahha!

yeap, i have to redock everything.

and you know what? linux cannot be opened if you got ur pc reformatted haahaahaa.....

and my pc was reformatted, and i cant get into my linux.

i got jacy's help, with her laptop, i prepare all the files, while preparing? alot of errors went wrong and i have to do it again.

should i be happy or disappointed as why everything happened to me last minute?

in fact, jacy said: you should be grateful you found out its wrong before you continue.

which is very true. i am very grateful i have friends around to help me out, and supervisor kind enough to guide me through by meeting me up later to set up for my whole program (as i am a noob in this and he's the expert)

not forgetting Kenny piglet >.<

he had stayed awake after work for like 7 hours trying to get my pc back to linux again, where he failed, and he's the one to hug me when i was crying tearfully thinking as if the world is going to end, and he's the one who assure me that everything will be okay.

i'd now gained conscious, and i would not let all my fellow people down >.<

i promise i will get everything done before the submission date.

redock? regrid? everything becomes clearer now, i can get through this!! arghghh!!

you really dont want to know how much time i used to spend to look for 1 file, and why this go wrong, why that kenot run in linux. in linux, everything is code/scripts. blah! T.T

Attachment in KKPJ

today is the first day i attached to KK Putrajaya, and we had an unexpected visitor....which is Prof W.

err? *ALARMED*

but he turns out to be really cute and nice and fun to talk with :D

we attended the briefing together (which is conducted in BM?) and he's actually curious and confuse on our usage of BM and english in our daily life. hehe.

since our presentation is in BM, he wonders how we usually interact with each other, language wise. =P

he also would like to know if our classes were conducted in BM or in english, and he questioned why our classes or presentation or things werent in BM.

answer? =) i say: coz the textbooks we used is in English! :D brilliant, isnt it?

heheheh

we went for tea break together, as they prepare some light meals for us. and? i was sitting next to him :S (thanx to syapiq........ -.-)

he was so confounded when he saw my name :S

he asked, is Phyllis a typical Malay name?

me: !!? i had this english name as im a born Catholic :P

i think this puzzled him more.

"are you a Malaysian?"

*grins*

i put it this way: im a Malaysian Chinese who is also a born Catholic. and im from Borneo XD

you know, i get the same expression from all Kwai-los i met this lately.

Prof W. is the second one. the first Kwai-lo i ever met is Kenny's colleague. Kenny and i were eating in The Walk when suddenly his european colleague dropped by and asked if he can join us.

he gave me the exact expression when he get to know im a Catholic, and this is what he says

"i cant believe we actually reach you guys in Borneo"

yeah! there is a bishop in sabah too! :)

:D

yup yup, people tends to be mystified with our multi-race and religions. impressive? you decide :P

since im saying that he's cute, i was trying to find some pic on him? and i found this pic quite cute (when i was browsing the thumbnails), and guess who i found him in a picture with?

*beams*! my beloved dean! arent they cute? =)

owh >.<

he asked me some questions on CNS (not to test your knowledge in CNS, instead, its more to hows the syllabus like and classes and stuffs) however, he stopped and laughed when he saw my frightened face (as i looked terrified with my eyes wide opened coz i thought he's asking me those stuffs hehe)

seriously, CNS got unknown mechanism of action, okay? hehehe. i cant answer anyone at all. wait till i had gone crazy then i will tell u whats all about our central nervous system :D

TDM presentation

this TDM thing, attachment and thing, really gotten me mad.

luckily i had just gone over everything, now report is what left. =P

we started this presentation like around 3? or 3+?

after drawing lots and stuffs, im the first to go -.-" where usually the first one was shot real teruk by our lecturers >.<

guess what? im the first one -.-"

but i had nothing to say, since im the last one to pick the lot (you know what, i usually do this, wait till everyone draws and im taking the last one. why is that so? coz i wont blame myself whenever i got the last or the first or anything, coz its because of that is what left. do you get me? LOL)

ya. im the first one.

and hehehehehehehe. should i be happy? or what?

a new lecturer came in, and comment on my case :) though she still comment, and i feel slightly stress, but i think im doing fine =P and i actually think that this new lecturer really good in all these! i mean commenting on ur cases or stuffs like that. kinda inspiring without really pressuring you down (though i felt pressured too haha...)

alright, now what i have to do is to prepare my report, and to get things started on my thesis. had just handed in my Chapter 1 and hopefully i dont need to alter anymoree >.<>

DANG IT, I WILL SURVIVE FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

oh yeah, i was planning to head back sandakan since quite a number of friends are going back, hehe. Kenny boy, i gotta leave you alone here in KL and be good will ya?

dont give me that look lorrr... :P

ahem. bad stuffs.

you know what?

i was talking to Jacy complaining there are 3 classes right before our TDM presentation tomorrow as there's an additional class of Dr. Affendi (which is also the 传说中very 靓仔 one... translation: well-known of his good-looks) as the juniors used to have class with him and started to gush on how handsome he is. ha! i finally got the chance! =P

ok la, so i was, cool, at least i stop complaining, even though our break time is not that much and its our TDM tomorrow ( i have to keep on stressing that its my TDM session tomorrow la, u dont know how stress i am trying to do my PCI. i started off with 11 PCIs, and now to 8 PCIs coz i dont wan to talk too much wahAHhaa.. >.<) and i told Jacy, fine, ok la, nevermind, i must wear nicely tomorrow. Jacy asked me to put on lipstick as well (on my teeth too)

i LOLed.

you probably dont know, as i never talk about it. yesterday we're doing this attachment thing in Hosp. Kajang, and erm, "someone" had her lipstick on her teeth. we initially didnt notice (or should i say, we dont know anything about it), but Ain told us about it when we're in the car and we cant stop ourselves from laughing. LOL.

if you would like to know who is this someone, ask me personally, LOL. i wudnt reveal her name here, of course!

hint: She's not a patient in Hosp. Kajang.

XD

toodles. gotta get back to my PCIs. bacteria sucks!

Stress T____T

stresss. :(

research's due date is coming soon and im doomed. *sobs*

still correcting my introduction part =(

worst still, TDM this week! *sniffles*

sad case.

should i go back to hometown during christmas holidays??

aww, its been ages since i last went back to sandakan, and im missing papa and mama. but, my christmas without friends suck there! T_T no one is around, besides Michelle, (if she didnt fool me :P) who else? Edwin Chang, Hwa Hwa, im missing you guys already T_T my kaki. =(

should i? or shouldn't i?

if im staying back, erm, i never have my christmas here in KL, especially with a darling around *blushes* wanted to celebrate my christmas and new year with YOU. :) if YOU dont mind, teehee.

yippie yay yay!

you know what? i just had my clinical presentation and thank God it goes okay with it *coughs*

sometimes, u know, it depends on which lecturer you got, lucky for me, really, coz im the first to present (which i offer it myself!)

aye! i am now getting myself readied to go out later with my piglet to our favourite place for movie and food! i seriously need this break right now~ hehe. and now i am counting the minutes to meet him up (glad that he's having his morning shift this week! at least we can at least enjoy our Friday night! hehehe. should we go TGIF for dinner instead, since its a friday?) XD miss the mac and cheese. :(

toodles, till then =)

another happy day in Hosp. Kajang

yes, from my post, u can reckon that im having a great day with my coursemate and lecturers :)

one of our lecturer were unable to present, and we're so happy to have Mdm. Semira to do our patient counselling with us! both Jacy and I were practically shrieking and jumped immediately for joy! *coughs* u know what, nevermind, but the fact is, we enjoy to have Mdm. Semira around! she's inspiring, helpful, and really enjoyable having her explaining stuffs to u. :) love you heaps!

lucky for me, my patient is not discharged yet, like i had mentioned earlier. heh. but i really do hope he's getting better, well, he coughs lesser at least by now~ Jacy's patient had been discharge, :S i wouldnt say it is the worst scenario, actually, since we do another mock counselling with Ain as the pakcik. :) its fun though~!

oh yeah, you know what? we kinda hear a doctor screaming, well not exactly screaming, probably shouting at the top of his lungs, okay too exaggerating, probably erm, talked real loud? towards another doctor who is doing his houseman i supposed, talking over stuffs like why dont you effing do the C&S test towards him and yada yada yada. (i add that "effing" word myself, just to, you know, sort of give you an impression what kinda tone it is) and that we should do the best for the patient!

alright, here's the point. yes, we all agree at the fact we should do our best for the patient's health, in fact, really. however, erm, criticising your juniors in front of patients and other younger generation? thats kinda bad idea, isnt it? we were all so frighten O.O wtf? i hope we're not blocking your way or anything, please dont scold me im still learn for God's sake! >.<

:(

i think i shud get myself emotionally readied for my ass to be kicked when i'm out in hospital next time. hehe. should i get it padded? or not?

oh did i tell you about Mdm. Semira telling us stories in psychiatric ward? hahaha. sounds fun! and btw, she has a real good expression, i cant stop myself from laughing seeing her mimicking the psychiatric patient and what do they do when she's around. =)

thanx for bringing us joy and stressless-ness. :)